Beautiful Mania
Our shameful, embarrassing symptoms are relegated to the far corners of our bathroom floors, where we writhe in pain, vomit, hemorrhage, or numb ourselves with opiates like some Dickensian character in a 19th century novel.

My throat will always
burn
from engulfed flames
I spit fire
I spit acid
my words aim to kill.

There will always be scars.
Some things
cannot
should not
be removed.
Some things
remind us
why we have survived,
why we keep
surviving.

My fingers will always
shake
but I am not a weak girl.
My stomach will always churn

but I am not a weak girl.

Michelle K., Weakness. (via michellekpoems)

Alone.

Like, physically. Emotionally. Mentally.

This alley way is a fucking casket.

If I don’t he’s going to I can feel it

“tell the class a little about yourself”

image

HAHAHAHAHA THIS IS MY LIFE

OH GOD THE LAUGHING IS VULGAR AND SHAMEFUL.

Oh wow. *rolls eyes*

And my favourite?  “You don’t look like a paranoid schizophrenic.”

Or….
“You stress me out/you frustrate me/you make me want to scream/being around you is like being on eggshells/I can’t deal with this right now/you make no sense…”

You know like …. oh sorry my existence is a fucking inconvenience for you all, yet you bitch when I express I’m considering suicide.

So which is it?

HAHAHAHAHA THIS IS MY LIFE

OH GOD THE LAUGHING IS VULGAR AND SHAMEFUL.

Oh wow. *rolls eyes*

And my favourite? “You don’t look like a paranoid schizophrenic.”

Or….
“You stress me out/you frustrate me/you make me want to scream/being around you is like being on eggshells/I can’t deal with this right now/you make no sense…”

You know like …. oh sorry my existence is a fucking inconvenience for you all, yet you bitch when I express I’m considering suicide.

So which is it?

mypaindiary:

Yep, sometimes I want to say this.

mypaindiary:

Yep, sometimes I want to say this.

cooldudebro:

let me lay down some facts for you:

  • aliens are real
  • horoscopes are real
  • skeletons are real
  • star wars is probably real
  • linkin park is almost too real
No, fuck you. I was worth it.
and I’m still worth it // R.R. (via missinyouiskillingme)
I’m always in a state of trance, I’m not very often in the real world.
Emma Hewitt (via keepyouridealshigh)

Yep. That’s it.
Done.

Honestly, being a fucking whore was easier than this. It’s what I am.

Worthless, insignificant, nonexistent broken little whore.

I destroyed my body for a peace of mind I never got.
Unknown  (via m-i-l-a)